happy anniversary... 5 days late.

I missed my blogging anniversary. :( I haven't been a consistent blogger throughout this busy year, but it still would have been nice to celebrate. December 6th was the special day. I remember exactly what I was doing when I created my blog. I was on my top bunk in my vacant suite. My room a little messy. I was soaring through the blogging world reading and pondering what I would blog about if I had an officially blog. I remember thinking to myself, 'every dreamer has a blog'... and here i am. 

I view my little blog as a lazy girl recliner. Not required, but a place of comfort I can go when I need to sort through or unravel the many things running through my head.

This blog in the last year, captured some of the heaviest things on my heart. It was a year of ups and a year of downs. It was a year of gains and a year of losses. It was a year of choices and changes. A year of letting go and hanging on tight. This year was remarkable. This year was eventful. It was a year. 

allow me to highlight. 

i struggled in school. i wondered if i would be able come back. 

i took a class on forgiveness instead of fulfilling another field observation. not only did i learn a lot, but realized sometimes a door will close so others can open. now i'm going to Jamaica to fulfill another field observation and would not have had this amazing opportunity had things happened 'how i planned'. thank you Father. 

in the last year i realized that the shy smart girl in my ed.psych course was actually a more quiet version of me that i would grow from and create a connection much deeper than with any other dear friend. 

i narrowed the field of social work i'm interested in. -- who am i kidding? i love kids and especially the fiesty ones. 

i engaged in not one but two all women's bible studies. 

i lost a friend. i lost a friend who said, 'I'd rather live the short life i have left with God, than a long empty one without him.'

i made a pact with myself. i'm at peace with who i am. 

i forgave. i rekindled. i let go. 

some friends... you will have forever. not even a graduation or a fist fight will separate.  these are your best friends. 

learning how to play the guitar takes practice. 

i know what i don't want. 

i spoke about Jesus in a large group of people. 

i served and i served and i loved and i loved. I served and I loved and I loved to serve. 

most importantly, i grew. i grew in my faith. i laughed a little more and wined a little less. i realized that allowing God to work in your life and telling him to take the lead is so much easier than trying to do it yourself.