found this.

I got this at summer camp one year. I just dug it out of one of my older bibles. What a great little reminder. :)
 

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone. To have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But God to the Christian says, "No, not until you're satisified and fulfilled and content with living, loved by Me alone and giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me, to have an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone.

"I love you, My child, and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with Me -- exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or belongings.

"I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you. You must wait.

"Don't be anxious and don't worry. Don't look around at the things you think you want. Just keep looking off and away up to Me, or you'll miss what I have to show you.

"And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any you would ever dream. You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, I am working this minute to have both of you ready at the same time, and until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I've prepared for you, you won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me, and this is perfect love.

"And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love. I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty and perfection and love that I offer you with Myself. Know I love you. I am God Almighty, believe and be satisfied."

happy anniversary... 5 days late.

I missed my blogging anniversary. :( I haven't been a consistent blogger throughout this busy year, but it still would have been nice to celebrate. December 6th was the special day. I remember exactly what I was doing when I created my blog. I was on my top bunk in my vacant suite. My room a little messy. I was soaring through the blogging world reading and pondering what I would blog about if I had an officially blog. I remember thinking to myself, 'every dreamer has a blog'... and here i am. 

I view my little blog as a lazy girl recliner. Not required, but a place of comfort I can go when I need to sort through or unravel the many things running through my head.

This blog in the last year, captured some of the heaviest things on my heart. It was a year of ups and a year of downs. It was a year of gains and a year of losses. It was a year of choices and changes. A year of letting go and hanging on tight. This year was remarkable. This year was eventful. It was a year. 

allow me to highlight. 

i struggled in school. i wondered if i would be able come back. 

i took a class on forgiveness instead of fulfilling another field observation. not only did i learn a lot, but realized sometimes a door will close so others can open. now i'm going to Jamaica to fulfill another field observation and would not have had this amazing opportunity had things happened 'how i planned'. thank you Father. 

in the last year i realized that the shy smart girl in my ed.psych course was actually a more quiet version of me that i would grow from and create a connection much deeper than with any other dear friend. 

i narrowed the field of social work i'm interested in. -- who am i kidding? i love kids and especially the fiesty ones. 

i engaged in not one but two all women's bible studies. 

i lost a friend. i lost a friend who said, 'I'd rather live the short life i have left with God, than a long empty one without him.'

i made a pact with myself. i'm at peace with who i am. 

i forgave. i rekindled. i let go. 

some friends... you will have forever. not even a graduation or a fist fight will separate.  these are your best friends. 

learning how to play the guitar takes practice. 

i know what i don't want. 

i spoke about Jesus in a large group of people. 

i served and i served and i loved and i loved. I served and I loved and I loved to serve. 

most importantly, i grew. i grew in my faith. i laughed a little more and wined a little less. i realized that allowing God to work in your life and telling him to take the lead is so much easier than trying to do it yourself.