Well, thankfully I'm writing this now rather than earlier. I'm much more optimistic now. The details are irrelevant at this point, but, just know that I hope my interim is not an issue of all my past relationships being thrown in my face in some way shape or form everyday. Perhaps I'm in need of one last lesson from each one, and there is something special in store for me at the end of the long drive. On the bright side of things, this class will be therapeutic and I've already learned much about forgiveness. I have some anger that I need to let go of. The anger is mine. It's MINE. Just like my smile and my sadness. Forgiveness is about acknowledging your anger and then giving it away. Forgiveness is not for the weak. I've also discovered that one of my largest problems with forgiveness is realizing that forgiveness doesn't always happen after you know the person is going to "change". Forgiving also does not mean condoning. Forgiving is a lot like letting go and all of these are issues I am willing to face and address. I've made it through the first step which is the ability to recognize. This is more of a personal note for myself... I can't continue to surround myself with people who choose to live a lie. Lie to themselves, family, friends... everyone. These are the last words I will let you say to me. The healing process starts now. Good bye.
When a fox is in the bottle where the tweetle beetles battle with their paddles in a puddle on a noodle-eating poodle. THIS is what they call... a teetle beetle noodle poodle bottled paddled muddled duddled fuddled wuddled fox in socks, sir!
I'm thankful for bananagrams. :)
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