relationship status: impatient.
restless mostly. i'm quite unsure what has gotten into this dear heart of mine. what's the rush right? i was completely content just a month ago. conclusion: i have an idea.. a vision... a picture. I'm fairly certain that I... Christy MARIE... know EXACTLY what I want... and the idea/vision is not quite in arms length away, IN FACT, I'm not even sure that I can see it... thus forth, an impatient heart.
I think that's what i'm most irritated about. the fact that i can't seem to keep this restless, rambunctious heart of mine under wraps and under control. I mean, i'm pretty sure if Jesus was next to me this is what he'd say... "Slow down Christy dear... your time will come... just keep your eyes on me... and i will take care of everything."-- I mean... I know I need to master this part of my life... and I know he's just preparing my heart... SO IF I KNOW ALL OF THESE THINGS...
WHAT ON EARTH IS MY PROBLEM?
pheww... i'm not sure what it is exactly... however this is what i do know...
This summer has consisted of me being completely consumed and obsessed with my job. i love it. and i've told all of you before, but i'm telling you again. i love it. i spend more time with my girls, that's right MY GIRLS than i do with my own family... or my own friends. Their stories make me cry... and they make me laugh so hard i cry. some might say i'm a too emotionally attached, i just think i feel so much compassion towards these girls. i truly believe that this job has in part transformed me into the person i am. the person i'm becoming. the fire inside of me burning bright... just keeps growing... growing to help these adolescent girls... to provide these troubled young women with the resources they need.
It's comforting knowing that you've found a career path that brings a smile to your face daily. i'm so blessed. i get goosebumps thinking about what the future has in store for me. i dream about where the Lord will take me. I feel absolutely weightless knowing that it's completely up to him. I'm smiling right now just thinking about it. :)
Please don't mistaken this free spirit attitude for a lack of direction. Goals are still created. For example-- this summer's goals are:
1. To run 6 miles. (haven't put a time on it.. too scared to)
2. Visit all of my favorite restaurants at the Lakes at least once.
3. To make it up to St. Paul to see my dear friend Beth once.
4. Volunteer in the Kitchen with best Christina at Camp Shetek
5. take at least one camping/canoeing trip outside of the state of Iowa.
6. go fishing with my dad and grandpa
7. make it to a twins game (maybe when i go to see beth)
With this list of goals... one might ask, "who even has time to be impatient?"
